Coward

I wish I can go back to the past~~
How I wish I could~~
Go back to my world which is ordinary and simple enough~~
No need to be so outstanding and excellent~~
Just simple enough~~
I'm a coward~~I always wish and try to be courageous and staunch~~but I'm failed~~
I'm a failure~~I get nervous and timid when facing with uncertainty~~even facing with strangers~~I lose my confident~~
I know how this can happen and I know the reasons~~I know how it should be and I know it is true and it is a fact~~
I'm knowing this better than others and I should do it in a right way~~I know the rules clearly and understand it~~
But I just afraid to face it, and failed to implement it~~
I should know my own ability, maybe I'm really do not have that ability~~
I'm a coward, a loser~~
Maybe I should try to let go~~I should try to find another way that is more suit to my character and personaliy, as I refuse to change it~~
Maybe I'll be more happy for not forcing myself to change to be seem capable and succeed~~=）=）=）

Lost again~~

I don't know what happen to me recently...life seems like very busy(in fact is not)....until I lost another piece of memories in September again...=_=

The [Needs] post was wrote during August, until today I only got the mood and can pick out some time to complete it and post it out...and the idea of writing the post was different from the begining already...

During that time, I would like to share about my needs, which I think it couldn't be fulfill even the lowest needs, I found myself lost during that period...

I was downcasting for quite sometime...but I had tried to face it bravely, think positively and smile...

And now, I had found my way to solve it...that is not my problem that annoying me anymore...

So, the changes of the idea of writing the post, is good~~

Again, I will try my very hard not to miss out any piece of memories....at least one post per month...okok!!!

Needs

My 3 years uni life in UPM, was a memorable moment in life...but 3 years study in uni, I almost gave all my knowledges back to UPM...Anyway, there have still some theories that I had learned gave me deep impression until today...and the one which is impress me the most and intimately related to our daily life is...Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs... Recently, I'm starting to think of my life...and reminded about this hierarchy of needs....

Maslow's hierarchy of needs is a theory in psychology, proposed by Abraham Maslow, an American psychologist. This defines every individual’s state of personality development. Marslow divided our needs into five levels, from the lowest to the highest in a pyramid form.

People will try to fulfill needs from the lowest part of the pyramid to the highest.

I'm not kind of people who like to have an excellent life...high achievement...prosperity....

my needs is simple enough...physiological, safety and love/belonging...ppl may think that i'm have not confident, no aspriration, or even useless....

for me, nothing will be more important than my family, friends and beloved one...as long as they can live healthy and safety...that is more than enough for me...

I appreciate what I'm having now...

No matter what happens, I will try to face it bravely, think positively and smile...

because I believe in "Law of Atraction" (another theory again~ =_= wat happen to me oh...lolz..)....

不开心

我不开心。。
很久很久都没有这样子了。。好想大哭一场。。
我想，我真的没有想像中坚强。。
一直认为自己是可以坦然面对生活的。。对所有不愉快的事都可以一笑置之。。
我一直都是乐观的。。不是吗？
是我高估自己了。。
讨厌自己那么软弱。。
讨厌忍泪！！

Bored

Time flies...is going to the end of the year already...i don't know whether it is only my mental reaction...feel that this year really past so fast...

I started to get bored...thinking to have something different and new in my life...thinking to change...is that easy??

王力宏「你不知道的事」

超爱超爱这首歌~~♥♥♥

Pulau Langkawi

This is a trip organised by branch....
We departed from Ti around 10pm, 30th July...the journey started with shakey sleeping night on bus....reach Kuala Perlis around 5am...wait until 7.30am to take ferry to langkawi Island...
Ah ney and I...at the jetty....

Me and Hooi Wen...on the ferry....

Arrived at Langkawi Island....with Chee Lin...

Group photo...
Ah ney + the big eagle = 牛魔王

His "water" in these two days....
Again, the same words....
4 ladies....
Look familiar ya this post??
The next day, Underwater World....

the most happiest moment ---first time saw real penguins....
So cute neh....

Me and penguins...

Big hor??? Like the fish that we always eat ---浦鱼。。。 want 四川蒸or清蒸?

Not bad lor...at least we saw those marine life that we hardly got chance to see....

The overall trip is...so so lor...I'm not really care as long as I can go jalan and relax with my "him" lor....=)

My Birthday 2010

Thanks for my honey for celebrating my brithday trice this year...

Lunar birthday celebration...

It has been long long time I didn't held a birthday party...so this year ah ney decide to do one for me...
My earlier birthday celebration on 17th July 2010 at ah ney's house....thanks for my dearest friends who attended my birthday party...
My dear Yee Pui....
My birthday cake....
Surprise from ah ney...I like it so much....muaks muaks...

Thanks for all the birthday gifts....^O^

My birthday dinner at Sushi King.....

Another birthday boy who has the same birthday with me...celebrate at Q Box....

Both birthday girl and birthday boy....

Last but not least, birthday cake before the end of 19th July 2010....

19th July 2010

Today is 19th July 2010.....
Today is 19th July 2010....
Today is 19th July 2010.....
Today is 19th July 2010....
Today is 19th July 2010.....
Today is 19th July 2010....
Today is 19th July 2010.....
Today is 19th July 2010....
As usual, I no need to work in 19th July of every year....
I just review back my older post....
In the past two years which I already graduated...during this birthday period...I'm jobless...=P
Luckily not for this year...I'm on leave only...luckily....
Just wanna take a good rest today...dont wanna think about those working stuffs....
Again, today is 19th July 2010...19th July 2010....19th July 2010....19th July 2010....19th July 2010....19th July 2010...
Today is my BIRTHDAY!!!
MY year 2010 BIRTHDAY!!! 2010...2010...2010...2010...2010...2010...2010...2010...
And.....I born in 1985...1985...1985!!!!!!
Means.....I already 25!!!!
Few more years ago....I'm still thinking what would I doing when I 'm 25??? Have my sucessful career and planning to get married on 25...but...time flies....now I'm already 25!!!!! and yet, I didn't plan to get married...thougth I'm still young....still want to shelter under my family....still dare not to build my own family yet....actually I'm getting old....T_T

25 years old....said young is not really young, said old it is not old also....

but what is my achievement??? for this 25 years??

career?? family?? money?? property?? future??

arrgghhh.....don't want to talk about this lah...isshh...
Coming to my birthday celebration this year...my ah ney had organized a BBQ party for me on last saturday....make people confused that saturday is my birthday...=P
Anyway, thanks for all my lovely friends who sacrifice their precious time to attend my BBQ party last saturday and thanks for all your birthday gifts....love you all....Muaks...♥♥
And also thanks for all the wishes no matter from sms or fb...thank you very muchie.....♥♥

\*(^0^)*/

我一定要成功！！

不可以再这样下去了！！会一发不可收拾的！！！我接受不到咯！！！
我不要变肥！！！
六月开始，我就一直觉得自己好像肥了。。慢慢身边的人也开始说：“真的咯！”
最令我不能接受的是--我的腰不见了~~T_T 每天看到和摸到的是圆圆的~~手脚更不用说了~~
我不要！！！
一直以来我在朋友眼中都是“吃不肥”的，天生爱吃的我也从不收敛。。就一直秉持着“吃得是福”的信念。。吃、吃、吃、吃。。。。变成现在，我根本不敢去测量我的体重！！！
不行不行不行不行不行不行不行！！！！
真的不可以再这样下去了！！真的会一发不可收拾的！！！我真的接受不到咯！！！

我一定要减肥！！我一定要成功！！！