Coward

I wish I can go back to the past~~
How I wish I could~~
Go back to my world which is ordinary and simple enough~~
No need to be so outstanding and excellent~~
Just simple enough~~
I'm a coward~~I always wish and try to be courageous and staunch~~but I'm failed~~
I'm a failure~~I get nervous and timid when facing with uncertainty~~even facing with strangers~~I lose my confident~~
I know how this can happen and I know the reasons~~I know how it should be and I know it is true and it is a fact~~
I'm knowing this better than others and I should do it in a right way~~I know the rules clearly and understand it~~
But I just afraid to face it, and failed to implement it~~
I should know my own ability, maybe I'm really do not have that ability~~
I'm a coward, a loser~~
Maybe I should try to let go~~I should try to find another way that is more suit to my character and personaliy, as I refuse to change it~~
Maybe I'll be more happy for not forcing myself to change to be seem capable and succeed~~=）=）=）

Lost again~~

I don't know what happen to me recently...life seems like very busy(in fact is not)....until I lost another piece of memories in September again...=_=

The [Needs] post was wrote during August, until today I only got the mood and can pick out some time to complete it and post it out...and the idea of writing the post was different from the begining already...

During that time, I would like to share about my needs, which I think it couldn't be fulfill even the lowest needs, I found myself lost during that period...

I was downcasting for quite sometime...but I had tried to face it bravely, think positively and smile...

And now, I had found my way to solve it...that is not my problem that annoying me anymore...

So, the changes of the idea of writing the post, is good~~

Again, I will try my very hard not to miss out any piece of memories....at least one post per month...okok!!!