最后一天

今天是我在这里的最后一天了。。
明天，我就要真正离开这里了。。
行李都收拾好了。。
但，我的心情，收拾好了吗？
为什么我总是不舍得？
三年的时光。。过的真的太快了。。
曾经，我是多么的抗拒这里。。
到了今天，真的可以离开这里了。。
我应该开心的，不是吗？
或许，是太多遗憾了。。
我们都不够时间，去做我们说过毕业之前要做的事情。。
也许，因为他们有些会继续读硕士，或留在这里工作。。
只有我，是真正的离开了。。
所以我总觉得，好像只有我一个人毕业。。
真的有太多遗憾了。。
我觉得很不甘心！！
不甘心就这样毕业了。。
但我又能怎样呢？
一想到明天就要离开这里。。
我的心就好像当初离开家里，到这里来读书的时候那样。。
不同的是，这次离开了，以后就再也不能回来了。。
感觉上，我好像就快要失去一样东西。。
那样东西，陪我走过了三年的时光。。
一起生活了三年，这么大的改变。。
我能够适应吗？
我不知道。。。

生气！

有些人，不懂得什么叫“珍惜”。。
把别人的“珍惜”，当着是应该的。。
还糟蹋了别人的珍惜。。
当然，人家也不会去计较了。。
因为都学会了怎样保护自己。。

我们都学会了。。
学会不去计较了。。
因为这样只会让自己不开心。。
但有些人，是会得寸进尺的。。
你不跟他计较，他以为自己很了不起了。。
完全都不觉得自己本身有问题。。
有时候，当你尽量不去想他的不好。。
尽量不去跟他计较了。。
但他时时刻刻都会做出一些事情。。。
另到大家不得不生气！！
走到今天这个地步。。
难道是我们想要的吗？

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Yesterday is my last exam in my uni life. I didn't sleep well for more than 1 week already. Now, exam had over, i can sleep as long as i can. But, even i'm so tired, i dun wanna to sleep. Thought sleeping in this such moment is wasting time only. Now left only 3 days time, i can be here with my buddies. I dun even start to pack all my stuff here, once i have pack, remind me that i going to leave here very soon...here is no longer is my "house" already...in the future, i cant being here like now already...it only can be in my memory forever...

This night, chatting with shirley and derrick until 4am. Cast back our memorable moments during this 3 years....
The 1st day we came to UPM...
How we know each other...
How insaneness that we used to be...
How we formed the Full House...
And...
How come Full House was no longer a Full House...

Derrick is true. This three years would be an important lesson for us...
No matter is sweet or worst memory...
I appreciate all my buddies here...

If you want to be appreciated, learn how to appreciate first...
Seek first to understand, then to be understood...
Once your appreciation were not be appreciated, let it go so that you wont get hurt...
Once you realized the fellness truth or get hurt, forget it...this is the best way to protect yourself...so that you wont suffering for that unpleasant experience...

End~

After exhausted for that two papers just now...

Officially, i end my uni life...

Tomorrow

Every semester, every final exam, for sure, i wish to pass it as fast as possible. Because i hate study, hate the pressure come from study....and just looking forward to the coming holiday....
But...this time...i don't have that feel already...oppositely, i wish the final exam, the ultimate paper for my final exam, won't come so fast...
And now, left no more 24 hours, i have to say bye to UPM.
Tomolo i have to sit for 2 exams, after tomolo, i'm no longer a STUDENT...

I have to step to the another stage of my life....I wish my future will be smoothly....but i know...life won't be as good as i wish to be....life might be tough....might full of obstacles....
I wonder what would be happen to my future...i afraid that i cant handle it nicely....

解脱

生病的人，总希望自己能快点得到解脱。。
不想再连累自己的至亲，每天为自己疲劳奔波。。
不想再留在这世上，受病痛的折磨。。
不想再有被遗弃的感觉。。。
身为家人的，当然也不想看着自己的至亲，这么痛苦的，在死亡边缘挣扎。。

她支持不了了，她过不了这个星期了。。
她快要得到解脱了。。
应该高兴？还是伤心？
一个至亲，快要离开这个世界了。。
难道，真的能做到，平平静静的吗？
难道，真的没有感觉吗？

即使早已做好了心理准备。。
即使知道这对她是最好的解脱。。
但，一个至亲，要离开这个世上了。。
我能不伤心，不哭泣吗？
真的有人可以很洒脱的去接受自己亲人的离去，而无动于衷吗？

Annoying~

I got 2 exams in the same day, I'm such a super lazy pig, for sure i would slack off to do other stuff later....but now, i got the mood to study, and why? the uncle staying in the same condo with me cant stop to sing karaoke! He seems like wan to let the whole condo's residents know how good is he in singing! Uncle ah, i realized your "talent" already....can you please turn your speaker lower? ?

Genting..

I suppose to stay at home yesterday, studying...watching "xing guang bang"....and lazying whole day.
But my lame honey suddenly said he wanna come to find me...=_='' because yesterday is Perak's Sultan birthday, is Perak's public holiday....i didn't expected that he did come here suddenly....waste my two days time...no need to study lor...sigh~ *joking only ah ney, i'm so happy that you came to find me here...muacks...
I haven't prepare my stuff yet, and they arrived, said wanna go to Genting and overnight there...=_=''
There were 8pm already since we arrived on Genting, but all the hotel's rooms have been fully booking, because this week is the Genting Thailand Songkran Festival and also got MayDay's concert last night...no wonder lah...
we have nothing to do there, just take photo and walking around there. We ate Thailand's tomyam in the Thai fair, it is really syok to having tomyam under the cold weather....miss the tomyam soup...drooling~

Sa Wa Ti Ka!!

Cute leh~~

We left Genting around 2am and overnight at seng's house at Subang.
We woke up around 11am in the morning, after brunch, we went for a movie "The Forbidden Kingdom"...

Erm....is nicer than expected lar....not bad lor..

ah ney...thanks for coming here...Next week have to come again and bring me back ya....muaks...

Miss...

Next Thursday is my last 2 papers. Last exam in my uni life.

This few days had surfing few friends' blog, find out most of my friends, those who also graduate soon, all have so reluctant to end their uni life....the ultimate class in their uni life....

My ultimate class? Why it seems like nothing? Tat day i went to the class, but everythings seem like normal. Few coursemates are taking photos there...

Occasionally, I'm so envy some of my friends at other Us....their uni life seem simply, but it is precious, i can feel how they appreciate their uni life, their friends, their lecturer, even a single course lecture....i think it would be a very sweet memory for them in the future...
It means my uni life not precious as theirs?
I appreciate what i'm having now.

This three years times, would be my very precious memory in whole life.

Still remeber the 1st sem in UPM? In this three years time.....we singing karaoke, travelling, shopping, barbque party, makan-makan....

~2005~

~2006~

See....our 1st sem's photo compare to the latest 1...

~2007~

~2008~

Time flies....c our oldest photos compare to the latest 1....we all had change a lots.....

I think i would being scolded by someone cause i post that photos here....

Now....left one week time only....my uni lifetime would be end.....my feeling? Complicated.

Gasoline at Small Genting

Actually i dunno wat is the exact name of this place, just all ppl call it "small genting". It is located near cheras or ampang, i also dunno.

We having dinner there, didn't take much photos cause there are too many people over there. The ambience there are so nice...


Blur blur photo~=_=''

爱情 = 感情？

今天和忆佩聊天的时候，谈到我们各自的男朋友。

有人说，爱情久了，就会变成感情。她问我相信吗？有没有这样的感觉？

我很肯定，我们之间的，是爱情！我不敢肯定以后会怎样，至少现在还是！

爱情=感情

但是

感情x爱情

你们认同吗？

难道，一个跟你有感情的人，就可以是你的伴侣？就可以跟他常相厮守？

男女之间的可以有很多感情，爱情是其一。

我不否认，爱情是会变质的。

男女朋友分手了，爱情就会变成友情。

“爱情久了，就会变成感情”我不明白，这是什么哲言？

如果真的有那么一天，就代表大家不再爱对方了；不爱对方了，就会分手；分手了，当然就没有了爱情；所以就只有感情。那是不是说，爱情久了就会分手？因为当爱情变成感情的时候，就是已经分手了的时候啦！那意思就是说，没有永远的爱情咯？

如果爱情真的变成了感情，那么为什么还要在一起？还会在一起，就代表爱情还是存在的。有些人结婚了，没有了爱情，但却为了孩子而在一起，那是很可悲的。所以，在决定是否跟一个人永远在一起的时候，是不是应该想想，“我们真的会爱对方一辈子吗？”

爱情就是感情，所以没有所谓的“爱情变成感情”。这只是那些不懂得珍惜爱情的人，拿来做分手的借口。

有时候，恋爱会出现“平淡期”，就是没像热恋时那么甜蜜，那么温馨。男女可能会因为各种因数而无意中忽略了对方，所以才会让大家有“爱情变成感情”的错觉。

Relax

Today's exam was quite easy, wakaka....cause all the topic that i had read were come out....but dunno will come out with what results lar....

After exam, we went to have lunch with one of our lecturer. His is quite a funny and nice lecturer. Like to have fun with his students, always do somethings that unexpected by others, suddenly shout out loud...haha...never meet a such lecturer like him...he treats all of us to eat the so called "spicy soup" which is one the famous soup in Serdang. It actually is a soup which is make from the pork and the viscus. Ermm..not bad lar...

There have a auntie selling jackpot ticket come in and the lecturer ask us to buy a jackpot ticket since all of us are so happy today. This is the 1st time i buy jackpot, haha...

In the evening, we went to mid valley to lepak-lepak. At mid valley, I have sign up a medical check up package for myself and my family. I think it is worth to be sign up lor. Once we sign up the package, it is valid for our whole lifetime. That means all my family members and myself, even my future husband and children, can make the medical check at the lab by just paying thounsand ringgit something only. The medical check up including 61 type of blood tests and ECG. Think that we should make medical check up regularly so that we can know how our heath condition and can prevent disease. Then i have korek my purse again...but it is for our own good, nvm lah..

We went to have our dinner at Madam Kwan's. The nasi lemak there is sooooooooooo delicious~~~see
and the cendol there is also recommended. I never eat cendol because i don't like it. But Madam Kwan's cendol is really nice....i like it very much....forgot to take photo for the cendul...hee~

Study~

Now is 3.45am...
I'm now burning the midnight oil for my current issue exam later (8.30am)....
Just now Nic made me a Kopi O, thanks oh...
Now i only realized, the current issue subject is quite interesting, but i never pay attention on this class...always on9 and gossiping in class...
that is me....always regret for the past....and never alter this bad attitude....never learn to be more hardworking....
that's me...
LAZY PIG!!!

Special For You~

Someone complains that why my blog never post something about him 1....okok...

Ermm....

he is the guy who accompany me passed through 7 years...

we have been together 7 years and 3 months already...we have gone through a lots.....

since our schooling life, until today....

our love had never alter....

the love story between us cannot be just describe by those words only...

just both of us know....how important of us to each other....

i dunno how to descride my feeling....

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ah ney...

you are not a 100% good man, but i know, you are giving me your 100%...

i can feel it...

thanks for being by myside....

Muacks...^*^